The Start of A New Beginning

It has been awhile since my last post.  I think it was sometime in February?  A lot has happened since then, but I'll talk about that later.  I first want to talk about what is on my mind at this very second.

Nine days ago, after getting into an argument with my girlfriend (her name is Annette Drapp and we have been dating since April 15, 2013) I get a Facebook message.  It is from Conner.  I'm going to try to express myself as much as I can because I feel like I need to get a lot of stuff out of me and into this blog.  The moment Conner text me it was a sign of shock, anxiety, and just wanting to know what was going on.  If you recall, Conner and I got in a huge argument back in December of 2012 and since then we have lost all connections with each other.  Conner had just found out that his girlfriend of three years has cheated on him and that he needed to escape for the night so he could leave.  It is one thing that his girlfriend cheated on him, it is a completely different thing when I find out he had just had surgery.  Conner was the only one here for me when I had surgery (besides my mom of course) and I just could not pass it up.  It was the ultimate test of our friendship.  So with butterflies in my stomach, anxiety going out of the roof, I decide to go pick him up.  Best decision I made.  After having him sleep over and catching up, it was a sense of relief that I had my number one, best friend and brother, Conner back in my life.  Ever since then, it feels so good to have a person to talk to that's been through similar things that I have been through, that gives me an escape when I'm not feeling right, or don't want to be around people that bug me and just want to be by myself.  Conner understands this feeling of wanting to escape, wanting to be left alone, and even though I am physically in the same room as him, it feels as if I have been left alone.  He knows when to talk and when somethings up and he knows that sometimes I just need to be left alone, that's what it is my escape route.  It feels so good to have reunited with him.  So good.  I have had the pleasure of spending Monday through Thursday catching up with him.  I love him to death, such an amazing person.  The thing is, and I don't like to say it but it is completely true, is that I am happy we fought in December.  The reason why?  It brings us even closer together now.  And that's what I love.

So I talk about being "left alone" and needing an "escape zone."  What do I really mean by these things? Well a lot of sad stuff has happened this week.  Sad personal stuff.  I lost a family friend and I lost a dog that I have known for the longest time (at least since I was ten years old). I just needed to be left alone, an escape zone, and unfortunately I don't think I have that zone at Annette's.  I feel as if I come over and just be quiet like I normally would she would think I was mad at her, but I am not.  That is exactly what happened when I decided to go back.  Just because I came back and turned my back to her when I was laying down, doesn't mean that I was mad at her, but I wanted to be left alone.  Didn't want to talk about my day, or even my week.  Just wanted to be left alone.  Well that's how my week went.

Moving on, I have been with Annette since April.  It has definitely have had its ups and downs.  In the end, I love her with all my heart and she makes me happy.  A lot of people are like "a relationship isn't a relationship without sex." I have to strongly disagree with that.  A relationship, in my opinion, is good with or without sex and I happy to announce that I have renewed my abstinence.  I have decided to do this because of many reasons.  I'm not going to waste time and list them now, but it's for the better and it makes the relationship so much stronger.

Ashley and I have also regained friendship, but you might know about that since my last blog in February (I honestly don't remember what I put there).  Ashley and I are good friends to this point, and like any friendship, we have had our ups and downs, not going to name any specifics.

As my health stands,  I have lost some weight and I am no longer on high blood pressure medication because I have been cleared for high blood pressure! YAY ME!

That's all I have for now.  Until next time - hopefully I will start posting more

Brandon

A New Year, A New Me!

It's been awhile.  Quite frankly, I completely forgot my blog account with Google.  So much has happened since my last post, I don't know where to begin.

Let me start off by saying this.  Most of the people that meant something to me last time I posted don't mean anything to me anymore.  They have decided to leave me and I'm fine with that.  I have learned to move on and understand that I'm better than them.

I have left my job at Marc's Grocery Stores and started my journey while I am at college into Marco's Pizza LLC.  It has definitely been a journey.  As of the beginning of February, I have been promoted to an Assistant Manager.  It feels so good to get a promotion and it feels so good to actually love my job.  I'm not stuck in a job where no one cares about me and all they care about is the customers.  Don't get me wrong, customers are the number one priority at Marco's Pizza but the employees and management actually care and treat employees fair, and that is what matters.

I made a Meet Me at the beginning of the year.  I was not intending to get into anything serious, at first I just wanted to joke around with people and think it would be funny.  This girls name is Alyssa.  I decided to meet up with her and she just makes me happy.  We have had a few disagreements, but it is great to spend time with her.  She makes me happy, and that's all that matters.

Other than that, life is pretty good.  Oh I forgot to mention that I recently switched majors from computer information systems to computer science.  Computer Science is more in depth with computers which is why I performed the switch.  Even though it is a big switch, I am happy to have made it.  

I hope to make more frequent posts.  Till next time,

Brandon